Jan 31 to Feb 6 - might be the beginning of something

The week has been nightmarish.A close one has been in an accident and life suddenly consists of nights spent in hospitals, trips to doctors and different clinics, fetching reports and having the lesson imprinted in my mind again and again - Life is short.I am waiting at a specialist for a particularly long period of time.I am getting a little angry at the wait - telling myself - we should be attended to first as our case is more critical than many.There are like some 40 patients in queue (thankfully, my number is 14).The wait stretches to around 1.5 hours.The patients keep on coming, joining the queue, some in tears, some unable to muster those tears even.I suddenly feel so defeated.Can we really change anything? Is it always going to be like this? Patients having to wait in queues, a few specialists for like so many of them needing it (the ratio must be pathetic), tests carried out at different clinics...this list can go on.How do we change this? Where do we even start? More importantly, will life ever be painless or pain- proof? There are many things we can never change - the uncertainty of life, the certainty of death, the inevitability of pain.But maybe some things can be changed as well.Like the ratio above, the accessibility of these facilities, the expense incurred by the common man in the process.It is a huge task to even think about changing these things - but - I do know, I will try and play my part in it.My calculator says I have roughly around 1200 weeks minimum - might be just enough to do something about it.