Jan 11 to Jan 17 - Saying No, or better, Living my life!

End of another week now. I never realised before, but these weeks do pass us by real quick. It is gonna be one hell of a task, changing my life per week, being as slow and lazy as I have been :). Anyways, this week I decided to do, what I think we all (about 99% of those saintly souls) decide most of the times and fail to do - practising the art of saying No. How many times have we all been forced into doing stuff we absolutely hate doing? At work, with friends, for family. How many times have we decided, that now we are going to say No, when we want to, and to whomever we want to? So time to put this into action. I started with the work part. I have been working on this project for almost 2.3 years now, releases after releases (some IT lingo, my friend). I decided to go for the change finally, refused the team, no more of the same work now. I have been asked by people, since, what next? I say 'I dunno'. Isn't that the truth now? It is good, the not knowing part, or would I dare to say No?

Jan 4 to Jan 10 - Just one rupee

There he is again. The railway station, the traffic signal, outside the temple, the multiplex or the plush restaurant. He is everywhere, much unlike God, I would say. He reminds me constantly of being trapped in a balloon, colourful from within, and seems like a world to me, but finally just a small balloon from the outside. He is the symbol of life, and its uglier side, a symbol of luck, or the lack of it. There is no difference between him and me, except the places where we were born. He could have been as easily me, and I could have been him just as easily. Begging all day, just for a few rupees to get a one-time meal, I reconsider how lucky I am. And how lucky you are too my friend, well if you are able to read my blog on Internet, you are luckier than about 80% of the people in India. So after years of looking at them, ignoring them, criticising them about having their bodies intact and still begging, I decided to do a simple thing, just give them a rupee everyday. I tried it out this week, and gosh, was it satisfying? More than anything I have done in the last few years. So now I carry a rupee with me, and off it goes to the first chap who cares to beg it from me (looking at my appearance, it is rare, you see!). Just a rupee a day, maybe one cigarette less a week ought to cover it, and I am done - doing my part in this enormous task of changing the world. Again, to the critics out there, I know giving alms is easier than providing employment, eradicating poverty and blah blah...but I am selfish, and I choose DOING the easier part, than simply talking about the difficult ones.

Dec 28 to Jan 3 - The patching up

The new year is upon us soon. It is going to be 2010! I remember in school how odd it felt when 1999 changed to 2000. It took some time getting used to writing the 00 instead of 99, in all the dates we would write in our notebooks, each period. It is hard to believe, I have graduated from 00 to 09 and soon it would be 10 this week. But it won't be much of a problem, we don't really write the dates in our routine lives do we? It can be 10 or 50, who cares? It is just a number. And so, I now embark on this journey, to make this just a number interesting and meaningful for myself, atleast week by week. So Dec 28 to Jan 3 became the week I patched up with a friend of mine. I know I know, whats the big deal? Well, he was at daggers with me, hated my guts and frankly, I think it is difficult to patch up. I have not seen many people doing it, they being too good for it, or just the lack of time and effort being a problem. Anyways, I went ahead and talked with the guy, shared a few drinks and unbelievably, had one of the best party, all with music, dance and drinks and a lot of man to man! I got to see the humane side of the guy, who I considered inhuman (my mistake) and even had fun. It was one of the best starts of the new year and now, the last time I checked, there is no one on my list of people who would want me dead, so bye bye 'looking over my shoulder' this 2010. And here I am, one thing crossed off my list of 'Make it Happen'.

About this blog

For some time now, I have been plagued with this intense feeling of getting bored and stagnated with life - like life is just not going anywhere and it has simply fallen into a routine. A routine involving the same set of activities, same set of people and the nauseating same set of places. I have always been a restless and an impossible to sit still kind of a person all my life, and living a routine has been the worst of my nightmares, and well, I am living it. The more I thought about it, the more I felt the need for a drastic change in my life, something about getting a new direction or a new perspective or atleast sometimes indulging in those calls of my heart, if even temporarily. Which brings me to my plan for 2010, and this blog. I have decided to experiment with my life, maybe make it weirder, or maybe make the weird parts saner - not sure. The only thing I have decided is - to do those small things which we always want to do, but never get around to doing them - factors like age, embarrasment, a practical bent of mind stop us. So here's to making it weird, one week at a time.